The Art of Slow
I don't know if it's because it's fall or what but I am feeling fueled by this idea of slowness. I have spent the majority of my life as a doer. I wanted to get as much done as quickly and efficiently as possible. My time in high school and college was the worst for this. I was and am known for getting things done and that became a part of my identity. I loved when people would say "I asked you because I knew you'd handle it" or I knew you'd be the best person to ask to get this taken care of. But as a result I was exhausted.
This mentality carried into my professional life and I worked in an environment that honored poor self care. It was not uncommon for people to work over 40 hours a week, even though there was a policy in place that did not allow for overtime. I had found my people and for a long time I loved working there. But as I went though health issues and realigned my values of self care I quickly realized that was no longer the role for me.
I was fortunate enough to find a new job that not only honors self care but encourages it. And sense this switch I have felt so much healthier. Not too long into my new job and old coworker told me I look "lighter" and that's exactly how I feel.
Slow is hard but so worth it. I am taking more and more time these days to care for myself. I feel more balanced and better able to interact with the world. And the best part is I still get crap done. I have not lost my effectiveness in doing less. I say no more often and in turn I am better able do the things I say yes to well while still maintaining my sanity.
I was thanking the Father about my new found peace yesterday. And it hit me that, not even the earth produces fruit all year long.
Obvious I know that but in that moment it took my breath away. The Lord values rest so much that He worked it into the rhythms of creation.
I don't know where you land on the self care or slow pace continuum but I'd love to encourage you to value rest just a little more this week. Let me know in the comments what commitments you're making to self care.